雨过天晴

原来流过泪随着的就是长大

我的好朋友, 真的谢谢你!!!

让我第一次有这个勇气说出我的想法
第一次有勇气知道所有的真相
第一次学会不懂什么,就要问清楚, 而不是自己猜 =)

我一直以为,你不想告诉我你的东西, 原来那只是因为我在不对的时间问不对的事, 迟钝的我aiyo xD

你的坦白, 让我有勇气在接下来的日子里表达自己所要的, 告诉人家自己的想法,信心回来了^^

领悟到的一点, 千万不要整天觉得自己所猜的就是对的...因为往往这些由"我"自己观点出发的,就是最大的错误和误会来源...愿与关心我的和我关心的人共勉之

还在学习如何好好利用自己的勇气中
给所有我关心的人,yaya可以, 你们一定也可以 ;)

自我反省

想不到我会在这种心情更新部落格...不是要写下云顶的一切...也不是要讲诉2010目标...而是想要更懂事一些...=)

你知道我要讲的就是你...虽然我不知道你几时才会看到这post
今天是星期二,3.30pm前还算不好不坏的一天

从小我就是一个不大会表达自己想法的人...就算到现在,我还在学习speak out what in my mind. 我的speak out, 绝对不想建筑在别人的痛苦上,是一定要在脑中过滤很久,适当的时候再说出来,因为不想自己的不成熟把一个珍贵的友谊泡汤

像今天,我说: 不想酱早回,至少不是在3.20pm就回...不想在4pm之前回...有三个原因
1.我想看到我的朋友,我讲过要跟她讲我的lecturer有多有趣,不然第二天我会忘记,我放过她太多飞机,虽然是很不情愿的(40%)
2.我的中华朋友,嘉仪慧琳,A-levels放学时间(40%)
3.不想酱早顾店(20%)

可能我只讲到第三个原因,之后又再说第二个, (之所以没讲第一个,因为我知道她都回了),不organise的做法让你对我有微言

我错了,我还以为你习惯了我不organise的想法,没有sequence的想法,其实真的不能expect人家了解你想什么,有时还是需要清楚的让对方知道

只是有时我觉得你很奇怪,抓一些我也不太懂的'漏洞',就是比方说你告诉我'你又讲你什么什么的,不是咩?' 讲真的其实我都不记得了...但是那时我的想法好像是: 原来你一直都不信任我...都在用自己的判断力来判断每一个人

我也有在反省...自己的sentence又incomplete了吗? 得到的结论是,下次讲时,记得把想讲的东西整理一遍,不可以不经过大脑说话,再好好的把想表达的东西讲出来

我有一个坏习惯:总在要求别人开口先.像今天: 你有话要对我说是吗?
其实那时我真的很希望你把你对我的看法说出来,其实我真的能接受的,像之前有人向我好意feedback,说我看东西会太主观,之后我会不断提醒自己,努力改过
像这次,我就学到,在要求别人讲出来之前,先讲讲自己在想什么,人家才懂你到底要的是什么

其实真正失望的是,你在我面前跟另一个朋友小小声讲东西...虽然我努力觉得'你并不会这么做,我想相信你'...但是事实太明显...你就是在讲着我 (如果我想错了记得要修正我,除非你连解释也懒得跟我说)

其实我更情愿你坦然面对面跟我说: yaya我觉得你酱酱酱不对! 真心的评语会让我回家反复斟酌,由衷感激,然后变成更好的人 =)

无可否认,我觉得我们之间的裂痕越来越大,这是我想讲出来的原因,我还是想说之前信里面的那句: 我珍惜这段得来不易的友情,希望这份友谊能常常久久,真的很希望 =)

欢迎你随时来找我坐下来谈, 也欢迎你随时feedback on me,不管是对我的做法,还是对我的不满...还是那句: 除非你不愿意

p.s.:我最喜欢一大班朋友一起放学,一起等巴士,一起交换分享一整天发生的事了,但是,我不再希望跟他们玩赛车,因为我突然发现: 那是很危险的事 =)

(在冷静了情绪后才写的yaya,其实那也用了我很大的勇气,只想让你知道 =))

Courage means asking for what you want and saying what you think.

Don't be the one clapping for others, but keep reminding yourself that next time you will be the person who other people will clap for u

A mian叫我update所以我''update'' xD

跟你讲ho,我本来真的打算update的...在我早上去freshman lunch然后再赶去打鼓,最后9pm再回来时 :) but a,在打完给ruru一封很长很长的comment后,我打消了念头 xD 因为,头又晕了!!!=.=

明天吧! LOL.

2009 --> 2010

aiyo...5th day liao tim XD 好啦, 应ss要求,写些新的先~本来我打算: 1)写剩下的a mian他们; 2)211209 outing; 3)241209 outing; 4)301209outing; 5)311209 countdown; ha!但是, 越堆积越多, 果然今日事今日毕这件事很多人知道但不一定做到XD 我就是一个 =X

yaya's 2009:

第一次没有在一月开学...所以当我在开学日睡到11am时,觉得很奇怪...

ha!还记得大家都在忙着申请NUS, NTU等大学=)

还记得我和quek organised的新年大团拜XD 还不错的说,好多人都来了 =)

先是我敬爱的老师 - LMH家
我高三班主任 - 周秀君老师家, 她教会了我不少东西 =)

全家福1(朋友们)...嘿嘿^^

lulu's 家 - 教了我两年(高一&高三)!超好人的生物老师 =)

guys~

girls~

还有的是recital~虽然输了 (前年还拿第一名的说 XD),但是过程却令我很怀念 =)

yaya, shin, yoyo, yong hwi, yee hua (还有pei hsuan leng lui^^)

之后,跟我亲爱的percussionists庆祝了我们老大的生日 =)

最左上角的就是chun hoong老大啦 =]

2009的大事之一 - 老大结婚了!!woohoo~我们帮他decorate的叻^^

wahaha...老大hou leng zhai ar XD 你结婚,你大完 XD

全家福2 (同志们)

之后还有了第一次真正到外面去做工的经验!

1st job : telemarketier, 三天罢了,因为我的耳朵不能听太久电话,会生东西,结果我毅然辞职了!muahahaha...当初本来只是想帮一帮妈妈朋友的忙,结果变这样,真抱歉 =(

2nd job : 我承认我不是个最好的老师,但我胜在很用心的教我亲爱的小朋友们=) 虽然只有短短的两个月=)

全家福3 =)

我的孩子们,他们真的很可爱,miss them so much =)

朋友开始一个个飞向世界各个角落了,新加坡的最多,
NUS的 a bu, huey, ruru, quek, star, atom, weihao, bohon, ky, ivan, huimin, fang, woeichean, chinsiong etc.

NTU的ruilin, jw, huiyi, lili, bear, vintho etc.

日本的liangchun; 美国的shan和shaoyu; UK的kenny和samuel; australia的chuen和weemeng; 香港的tuan khee; 台湾的qiqi, david n kyan...

当然还有留在马来西亚的ss, dai lou, co, huiwen, goh, xiao fen, hao xin, peichee, jia jun, joshua, bryan, pig, man hau etc =)

还没去之前,当然少不了很多最后的outings =)

我可爱的buddies, ruru =)

还有a bu...他们两个在我家过夜,忘不了那天=) sweet memories^^

Samuel~
star, yaya, vintho, a bu n shan =)

还有我班最可爱的男生plus班长 - 军威 =)

我亲爱的keikei, star n shan =)

percussionists的gathering,漏了dai lou :'( (其实是他迟到啦 XD)

my buddies - a bu & shan

lili, yaya, shan, a bu, star; miss the moments so much =]

对了,我还尝试了做和平的讲解员,学了不少东西=)

也尝试了第一次的clubbing,当然,他们都是我信任的人 =] 而且,也是kenny的farewell =)

Shin, yaya, see mae, candy, mun yee =)

还有在UK念书的主角 - kenny,我的senior,很棒的saxophonist~

每个人开始为自己的学业,工作打拼~飞的飞,走的走; 我经历了一段不愿意面对现实的低潮期, 直到我明白"天下无不散之筵席"的道理 =))))

没有分离, 又哪有再重聚时的感动!? 我期待我们的兑变 =D

我也不懈怠,今年做了干事,已经是少年部, 学生部, 女子部和青年部的负责人...负责一些大大小小的活动与开会=] 我最开心的就是能折伏chuen,真心希望她幸福(我知道我不能"讲"而已, 要做到 =) )

在HELP认识了一群跟我有着同样方向的人 =) 都是爱读书的人 =) 还有爱唱歌的 XD

全家福4 (上) Wee kiat, yaya, yen, a mian, a bing, voon
(下) Hui min, lilian, choon ting; 他们真的很好人 =)

还有左边四个 - jack, andrea, melvin & Hana

xiaofen, haoxin跟我同校,开心^^还意外的发现josh, zoe, bryan和man hau也跟我同校,超开心^^

12月份,是朋友重聚的重要日子 ^_____________^

虽然可能重聚的时间不多,臭新加坡,要做的东西多到要命=.= 但是我珍惜我们在一起的每个时光 =]

第一辑 : 211209

他是rui lin, 很帅吧, ha!这不是重点, 重要的是他很好人, 终于有了第一张合照 =)

可爱依旧de jiun wei,害我没得去genting =( ha!开玩笑啦~期待你下一次会plan出怎样的trip =) 我不要spontaneous的!LOL!

久违的wee meng, 好好人的他 XD

好朋友^^ yaya, ss, ruru...

其实这个outing还不错, crazy + spontaneous XD, 我和ss organise的, 先在timesquare看 avatar, 再来是wee meng的不见车钥匙 XD (还好找到了^^) 再来是kepong的大炒, 帮ruru庆祝生日, "难看"的生日蛋糕 XD (火箭咩!?hehe...), 打羽球, aaa, 我亲爱的中华^^, then 1u的晚餐! 讲到这个就好笑!! guess what? 7.30pm抵达, 来来去去,绕了又绕,终于达成协议吃Zanmai Sushi, 时间已经是9.30pm了...OMG!这群男生!LOL...欠打又可爱到 XD 本来想拖拖下时间, 逼jw唱半夜场的K, 但是1. 我生病了!!!O.Olll!!! 2.好贵好贵 o.o...haha^^ 最后ky载我们回家, 谢谢wee meng, ruru, jw和ky的贴心 (ss没有关心我 =( ) jw最棒 =P 原谅我偏心, 因为真的没见过酱细心的他 XD (可能在sg病怕了 LOL...)

第二辑 : 241209
我和huey organise的 =) 很棒的一个午餐, 在petaling jaya的吹吹水, 大家, 真的久违了, 听着他们有趣的故事, 当然还有我亲爱的老师 - OKL的一大堆牢骚, 人, 老了, 真的会变得长气点的 =P hehe...没有啦, OKL还是一样的漂亮, 一样的nice!! ^^

第三辑 : 301209

唱歌先, 一个字, 爽!!!大家都是爱唱之人 XD

再吃台湾餐(我和ruru的拍照时间^^)

再来合照^^

OKL's pose XD yea ^^v

之后, 大家回家了, 我和shan会留在a bu's house过夜, 所以我们继续"蒲" XD a bu's dad...@@...看起来就是一幅成功人士样 XD

a bu's dad回家后, a bu载我们去吃kajang satay, a bu还做了一样"很可爱"的事...hahaha...我才不会说出来 =X

pillow's talk time...讲了好多八卦的事, keke...原来我不懂酱多的内幕...keke...ha!很爽叻!!

讲第二天要走巴刹, 结果我自己睡到8点, (还以为7点可以起来), 结果就到了a bu家附近的茶餐厅吃好吃的猪肠粉^________________________^ 满足!!!

a bu送我们到ktm, 我的badminton还是留在了a bu's house T.T...我最后悔的一件事就是!没有拍到照片!! T_________________________________________________________T

aaaa.........aaaa.......aaaa..............a........

第四辑 : 311209

genting's countdown!

跟80万人一起countdown, 著实不同 =] 照片迟点先 =]

就在2009的最后一天, 璀璨的烟花划上了完美的句点!!!我的2009, 有欢笑, 有泪水, 有感动, 有挣扎, 没有遗憾!

一年一定会比一年更好!我坚信这点!

2010年, 不只是我会活得好而已, 所有我关心的人, 我爱的人, 关心和爱我的人, 都一样定会活出精彩的自己!精彩的人生!!

人活着不可能只有一个人, 没有朋友, 没有同志, 没有家人, 我很庆幸在2010年, 我还能与他们同进退!!

2010年目标 :

erm...下次再写, 因为我要想久久 XD

2009年, kiss u goodbye!!!^^

2010年, welcome to my life!!!!!!^^

Random

1) 一句''random''就搞掂!不用花我limited的脑汁来想topic!XD

2) 我要换blog的背景啊!! ruru你去了哪里!?教教我!!我要弄到像你的酱美啊XD

3) 独中生跟国中的到底有没有差别叻??为什么我好像不太懂国中生的想法?(不是stereotype,我只是想明白)

4) 发现''上了大学是重新塑造形象的机会''这句话好对!XD hahaha^^ 好开心!我要做文静的牙牙!!(不可能咩?有啦，我觉得我行XD) I want to be a GREAT LISTENER XD 我要做勤劳的牙牙!!!懒惰的牙牙， go away go away!!! x)

5) 2010要到了，是时候该为自己set目标了! 好难 ><

6)验收下我limited的英文 =)

7) eee...aaa...cannot...brain juice finished dy T.T

8) 不要再想回过去了，做错了，失败了，重要的是你如何应付未来，而不是缅怀过去 =) make every seconds a new start! YeA ^^v

9 & 10) 我真的忘记了， bad blogspot，y everytime deleted some of my words!? T.T

11) 失败了，做错了，真的不算什么；最重要还是我怎样应付未来，要有智慧 =) 不要酱小气，酱自私...我一直以为自己能做到从sensei身上学到的''为他人幸福烦恼，想办法是最快乐、最充实、最有满足感的''，可是我没有做到...*我会提醒自己的，2010年!!* ^________________^

12) 我一直很羡慕xiao fen，她不像我酱，很乱水，从不整理自己的思绪，她很清楚地知道自己的感受，甚至他人的感受，真好 =)

13) 我不再当跟屁虫，我会努力尝试找出属于牙牙''好的，独有的特色''...东施效颦，从来就不是一件好事...自己的家庭背景绝对不是一个懦弱的借口，我一定要提醒自己这点!!!

牙牙从前是一个没有自信、跟着别人的影子起舞的人 =) 2010年，我敢于看回自己之前的弱点，面对它，然后更进步!

五颜六色真美丽 ^_______^ 人就是因为不断求进步，才能变得更美丽，更有魅力 =)

Cont.

Shau Yen, haaa, her first impression for me was really good, cause i remem she said : wow, yaya, cute name! XD n i like her smile...*dat time dat 1...(faster recall back =P) n she looked alike wif one of my fren (Cheng Aik lived in cheras also de XD) btw, is a 'HE'...lolx...yen zai, 4give me, anyway, no more alike anymore for now! =)
She is 19.
Long hair with white complexion, single n available. XD
She lived in cheras. (i know where the actual add! muahahaha~)
She is quite pretty for me. =)
She likes to smile til crazy.
Typically 'HK' style girl.
She is TALL. (one thing she is proud of)
She has a elder brother who look alike wif LCW n an open mother who let her go anyway she wants.
She loves her father. Of course mother & brother.
She is extravert man! Easy to friend with everyone. Easy going girl.
She is clever, for me, she can understand a thing very fast.
She is shorten-memory type. She would ask u where u lived for many times though u answered her ady.
She is helpful. In my study. n also ptptn. =)
Good memory for the 1st time i visited her house. Her 'area of house' i shud say XD
N i going to 'explore' her more in future! =)

Last, the very special talent for her is, GAP ZAI...LOL...first girl i knew who likes to gap every single nice-looking guy very much. XD (initially i tot wil b voon, but finally yen won!hehe...^^)

Shau Yen

Wan Ping, christine, in the other name, or 'a bing' i like to call her as XD first impression was wow! like so many experience d 1 ppl, cause she looks mature n serious...有成熟美=) BUT! i was wrong man...wrong gou gou li XD

She is 1 year more than yen. (sounds better than i write directly right? XD)
Middle long hair with a spec on her face.
Quite nice voice when sing k. =D
She lived near to school. (=x...damansara right? XD) So, she shud b the first person reached school everytime. but in fact, ehem, who knows!?XD
She is fun n humor person. Wow, she knew so many hao hao xiao de stories. x)
She很乖。every weekend back to her kampung, (negeri sembilan right? XD) help parents out, n therefore have less time than us to do homework. (hw sounds like in high school, shud b assignment then o.o)
She got her car named 小白(我取的，千辛万苦取的XD)。“此白非彼白=.=” 车牌 ： TS 1157。No any chance to race car with her cause she backed with another route. =(
She is a SEXY girl. WoW wOw!! miniskirt! x)
N i also going to 'explore' her more in future! =)

Oh ya, she is caring man!!=)

Left : A Bing XD

Siau Voon, i think she was the first person i spent the most time with! cause other than 4 compulsory subjects v took togete in 1st sem, v took LAN subject togete also which undenieable a great subject for me to und more deeper on her n experience more same thing with her! ohhh...LAN....this is the one n the only thing dat u r very very useful to play a role in!!(walao, i also not und this english o.o...) Oh ya, n v both joined same society togete also--PSG!!!=D

She is 19.
Middle hair n sumtimes wif spec (黑框的! nice!=)))) nex time if i近视, i would choose this also! =D) cant waitt dyy >''<>''< speed ="P" style="color: rgb(255, 255, 0);">first person who knew Kenny XD)
I know THE TYPE OF GUY she likes. x) heee ;)
Surely n surely i wil get to know her deeeppppeeerrr n deeeppeeerr in later days.

To conclude, she is a girl, heee, no la, she is NICE! O.Olll =)

Oh, i think how i knew the ppl below will be quite same, cause they are like stick-cant-b-separate-ppl XD (i mean last time), cause u just have to see any one person's shadow or even a shoe,
u wil know dat, 4 of them would b appeared in ur sight after dat very SOON! x))))

4 of them too, i experienced much of memories in HELP wif them! Other than 4 subs, we are PSG n joined LAN togete also. =) They are very special 4 ppl for me : Wai Mun (same PMG group also), Sook Mian, Choon Ting, n Wee Kiat. =)

woii, lots of Voon's part MISSED! bad blogspot! =(

to be continued

(for my reminder =D)
1) voon's missing part
2) SM
3) CT
4) WM
5) WK
6) Jack
7) Lilian

others that i might know but din get in touch so frequently : Elaine in pathway B, Adeline, Joanne, Ming Han, Ying Qian, Soyou, Jason, Yuna, Andrea, Melvin =)

Yaya's first sem first year in HELP =)

switch mood switch mood XD

recalled back what i had experienced in past 3 months, just 1 word can describe : great!!!XDDDD

hey, here is the list 1st, my new new new friendssss x) (cronologically...hehe)

everyone would have their 'first' for me =)

Sulin, type A girl XD my primary fren, so great dat she studying with me in same uni =) who was the first 1 i saw n met in HELP =) nice, extremely hardworking, n clever =) oh ya...EFFICIENT is the best word to describe her!XD

Ha nnah, met her in toilet outside 3.3 XD 1st impression, friendly girl, she was the first person talked with me in ENGLISH...woohoo~have lots of contribution in improving my english, thanks for didnt laugh st my very poor english n very lousy speaking =) caring, put much effort in studies (admire her about this because she said she must get the scholarship or she couldnt continue to study again=) ) anyway, ptptn approved already n very glad to know this! She could continue working towards her dream again=)

i think i knew 4 of them 1st in mc100 class when sulin asked them about textbook- Sook Mian, Wai Mun, Choon Ting...oops...is 3...cause i missed Wee Kiat dat time...but didnt get to know them deeply after that also...so...skip 1st xP

Then should b 'Fair Lady' group - Shau Yen, Wan Ping, Siau Voon n Shu Min =)

Shu Min, hee, suddenly a funny posture past thru my mind XD think dat u r dat kind weak weak, spontaneous (o.o...emm...shud b middle of 'C' in OCEAN) girl...a small little girl, all decision cant make by urself de XD First girl i felt no stress talking with (cause she was using chinese with me n like wan to dependent on me, hee XD think too much >''<) =)

*y some of my words disappear!? T.T